On Sunday night I had a homework assignment where I had to write a scene using, dialog, internal dialog, action and scene description. We also had to have a moral type thing at the end. Because I was so emotional from saying goodbye and from my dad being arrested Ireally wanted to write about something real. So, I wrote about saying good-bye to Brian. Some of what's in here is stuff that wasn't said during that moment, if at all so take some of it with a grain of salt. Anyways, this is close to what I submiyyed for the assignment.
I walk outside slowly, dragging my feet the whole way, hoping that if I walk slow enough I won‘t have to let him go. Brian follows. I walk over to my car, lean against it and hug myself, trying to hold back tears. He comes up to me, tilts my chin with his hand and kisses me tenderly as the tears start to fall down my cheeks. The kiss ends and he looks down at me, suddenly aware of my tears. His dark green eyes fill with compassion and he wipes my tears away with both hands. He caresses my cheeks with his thumbs as he says,
“ This isn’t good-bye forever Megan, it‘s just for now.”
“ I know Brian, but what if you stop loving me or-”
“ I could never stop loving you.”
“ I know, but this is just so hard. I feel like I’m losing my best friend in the whole world. Do you think we could just stop time right now so we don’t have to say good bye at all?”
He smiles, but he shakes his head and drops his hands from my face. We both sigh and walk hand-in-hand to the driver’s side door. He wraps his arms around me and I am consumed by fear. This may be the very last time I get to feel the warmth of his body pressed against mine. I stand on my tippy-toes and press my face against his scruffy cheek. I breathe in the scent of him and try to imprint it into my mind. I start to cry again. I’m trying so hard to be strong for him and for me. I know in my heart that we both need this break-up to heal and to grow as individuals. I take a deep breath, stop crying and I lean back against the car, hoping the metal will somehow give me the strength to let him go. I look up at him and realize that he has tears in his eyes too.
“This is hard for me too Megan. This weekend was AMAZING. I could never regret a single second I‘ve spent with you during this weekend or during the three years that we were together. We‘ve grown up together and that‘s not something I‘ll ever forget.”
The tears start rolling down my cheeks again and I say,
“Why does this have to be so hard? Brian, I don’t want to let you go and that’s not because I’m afraid to be single. I don’t want to let you go because I love you SO much. You’ve made my life so much better than it was before I met you. I’m am going to miss you a lot.”
I start to sob and we embrace so hard I can barely breath. We let go and I quickly glance up at him, slowly pushing my blonde bangs behind my ears. His eyes tell me it’s time. I open the door and fall haphazardly into the driver’s seat. He leans down, puts his hand on my face and kisses me. He lets his hand linger there as he says,
“ I love you so much Megan. We will both be fine.”
“ I love you too Brian. I know we will.”
“Goodbye May-Gone”
“Good-bye Bri-Yon.”
He closes the car door and I can feel the entire car echo with the sound. I turn the key in the ignition and watch him walk toward the sidewalk. I take a deep breath and push in the gas. As I pull away I look to my right. He is standing on the sidewalk waving, an image I won’t soon forget. I wave back and then speed off down the road.
“Saying good bye is never easy.”
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